I wonder if something's on your mind...

I love you, and I always will.

Tomorrow, I'll do my homework, and then we're going to have some legit best friend time.

I've been thinking about what I said about my fears and, after a brief but very real existential crisis (not really! I'm fine! just like... life examination time, you know?), I wanna talk a bit more about what I was telling you about. I think it was a bit unclear and silly sounding, and now that you really forced that outta me... I feel better. It's like in spirited away when-- you know what, I'm a nerd

But I'm a nerd who loves you. :D

Forever and ever.

confession: I'm looking forward to applying to college because it'll be the light at the end of the tunnel.

Sometimes, it makes me really happy to do all the things we do together. Like, sitting on my bed watching reality shows and eating mangos. I even sit in the same place we always sit in.

Nick: you said you were gonna go to sleep in 10
Nick: but you meant 10 human minutes
Midori: RIGHT
Nick: and 10 vampire minutes actually go to 3.45.
Midori: yeah
Nick: human time
Nick: i mean.
Nick: so yeah.
Nick: that's just a rough mental conversion though.
Midori: we make the perfect couple you know.

you can cut through everything with a single line, you know. that's one for the vaults.

I wonder where you are?

hm, this wasn't here before...

The shrill cry sliced through the night's dark stillness, piercing through the brisk air as if it too wanted to escape, but instead echoing back to plague her again, strangely hallowed as if the landscape had somehow altered the noise, finally allowing it to waft up from the damp grass into the desolate moonlight above.

and so it begins.

Technology

Technology is purely mechanical: gears meshing with gears. Lightbulbs exist, though they're expensive and one must provide one's own energy; usually only machinists like Idarus have toys like that. Metalwork is important to Armour, and so machinecraft goes hand in hand with metalcraft, especially for poorer areas where gold and brass aren't options. Phosphoric displays and wax-based memory are the height of modern technology.

The most practical use of technology is production: factories work on coal or boiling water. Factories center around metalcraft, and although factory-production has not yet uprooted artisans' craftsmanship, that revolution has already begun.

The actual tenets of technological design base more around the superstitious flavor of Greek science than around what a Western person would consider "modern scientific thought." However, this science is often accurate and proves mostly practical. Sacred geometry is the solitary overlap between Aumorian science and the now-outlawed Aurmorian magic.

Gunpowder and artillery are in their early stages of development, and are used sparsely by the military, and mostly to replace catapults. Most soldiers do, however, carry stumpshots.

I've been working on Armour again.

I think you're having a nightmare or something. If something feels unsettled in my stomach and I focus on it, I can tell when it's something I can't explain. I hope you're okay

You're in my room in your vowel and consonant shirt in the bathroom washing your watch off before you put it on. I just wanted you to know that right now, I'm the happiest I can remember being since we fell in love.

Thank you for everything.

And I love the best girl in the entire world.

And I can see her in just a week.

There was a sky today I wished you had seen. There are so many things here that I can't take with me in a picture.

I love you.

I'm sorry I can't be around for you. I know how much different the world seems without you, and I have no doubt that it's the same deal for you. I can tell that sometimes, right behind the words on your tongue, there's a "since when was the world so cold!" ready to pounce out. I wish we could huddle against each other for warmth, and soon enough we'll be able to. But I'm always here for you. Always.

I love you, honey. I'm off to bed, but promise me you'll smile for me.

I improvised shakespeare today and now I'm picking up the habit of speaking in rhyme to mess with people.

ALMOST 10. Holy shit. I'll keep saying this every day, but holy fucking shit I'm gonna see you so soon. I'm gonna start showering really thoroughly, or something.... What I would have given to say "10 days" when I was in the middle of school last year. I think that phase is pas[sed/t] now: we'll never have to go that long again. Also, Adam really wants to go to Japan. Which is great, but I think I want some time alone in Japan with you, too. I definitely want it to be just you, me and your friends in NJ, and maybe he can leave Japan before we do? Oh well, we'll figure it out. I just treasure every moment alone, you know?

And honey, I'm just so in love with you... [there was a time when I said I'd never keep a blog]

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The rain pours like water from a hose, visible only through the streetside lamps, bathing the cobblestone streets in gold. There is an ancient city underground here. It's one of the many things nobody's quite figured out about this town, but it seems like everyone pounces around, pretending nothing's strange. Maybe that's why people can drink whole pints of beer here; it helps them forget to wonder. Tonight, I'm letting my mind wander as the streetlamps tell me a story of love and longing and drama mills, and of boys pressed up against window sills.

Oh god, you look so fucking cute in that bathing suit... I'm so glad you had some fun surfing, too. PS, you're hot. For real.

I remember the turtle! And that all sounds like so much fun, as long as you're careful. I used to be a water person... hey, maybe I will be again someday, eh? You bring out the best in me.

ALSO, ELEVEN. "I'm getting anxious (super excited with a pinch of nervous)" pretty much sums it up. I'm so freaking excited. There are no words to even explain how excited I am to see you. We're getting into single digits soon! Oh shit, Midori...

I love you. So fucking much.

You're not a dumpster for other people's bile. You're so much greater than you can possibly imagine. I know you won't believe me (or maybe you will), but it's true: you're so full of life and energy and potential. Nothing can hold it in, especially some whiner. You're so much greater than I in so many ways, and someday it'll just all come pouring out whether you want it to or not. You can't contain it, it's just how you were made.

And the fact remains, there's no one in this entire world I want to spend my life with but you .

(sometimes you find hints in the oddest places)

want to know a secret?

we're always connected. always.

I wonder where you are now. I hope you're okay. I have to think you are.

Finally a morning to myself.

I love you, I love you, I love you. Seriously. I miss texting you, I miss IMing you, I miss calling you... but dear, I'll find a way to call. I'll get a calling card soon enough. They're expensive here, as is everything else, but it's fine. Anything for you.

I hope your happy there. I hope your presentation went well. I hope you don't miss me as much as I missed you in Africa, I hope that you're feeling better, I hope that you're luggage comes back to you... I hope a lot of things. But baby, I'm going to see you so soon now. So fucking soon. And I could NOT be more excited.

I love you, always and forever.

PS: Listening to These are the nights makes me swoon in a completely guilty way.